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Friday, May 27th, 2005
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10:05 pm - BAHHhh.
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I feel like POOP. I swear to god, i'm SICK of being lonely.. All my friends have a boyfriend/girlfriend and then theres me.. ALL ALONE. I've been single for pretty much a year now, and nothing's changed in my "love life" GRRR. I just wat to give up on looking, Nothing will happen. I wish something did happen soon, I'm just so tired of being lonely and almost crying everynight, and for FUCK sakes, GRRRrrr, just shoot me now, please.
current mood:  lonely
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| Monday, May 23rd, 2005
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1:36 pm
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Oki doki.. Yesterday I got a haircut, and I think it looks HORRIBLE. haha.. omg.. but yeah... I haven't updated in awhile, and theres NOTHIGN to say, nothing hapened in my boring mediocre life, haha so yess....
current mood: bored
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| Sunday, May 22nd, 2005
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9:57 am - Photobucket
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| Friday, May 13th, 2005
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9:06 pm
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Today, was the most boring day of my life.. literally. I got to school.. pretty much got ignored. went to my first three classes, fell asleep in ALL of them, then lunch. AH i didn't say like a single feffing word throughtout the whole thing, and BLAH.. then i had 'band' which I skipped with Jess.. that was fun, I got a poutine! yay. that was the highlight of my day, then I had a weird math test which was feffing gay.. so ya... then I came home, got yelled at, and my parents are now looking in my feffing chat logs and crap and it's bullshit. then i went to this garage sale thingy.. got my toothbrush back from Carries, and yeah... that was my most boring day of my life.. so far.. i'm sure they'll be many many more.
current mood: bored
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4:16 pm
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Today I slept. YAY.. my great post for today :)
current mood:  sleepy
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| Tuesday, May 10th, 2005
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6:54 pm - Ugh
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I am sick, what else is there to say. I HATE SOUNDING LIKE A FRICKEN FROG x_x but i'm starting to get voice back.. and yeah.. i have to go back to school tomorrow yay.
current mood:  sick
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| Saturday, May 7th, 2005
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7:15 pm - WELL
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Well.. yesterday was a fun day haha, had scool, which i slept like EVERY class, yay. hmm, then I had Carries birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY CARRIE. so me Angela, Carrie, and Amy all went to the mall and met up with Jesse. and uhh uhh. went shopping, got nothing! yah! then we went and tried to get into a movie, but we had to be 18 and they were checking so it sucked, haha, and so we were asking random people to get us in, but no one would :(. Boohoo. but we saw the Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy instead, haha stupid movie, TOWEL! so yesss, then we went back to Carries house, hung out and got fat[er]. then Angela an d Amy lefted and me and Carrie prety much died and fell asleep at midnight haha [so early!] so yes, we woke up for like 20 min then fell asleep again, we made pancakes later! [yumm] then uh uh. THEN we did nothing for like 2 hours, then hitched a ride with her brother to esso and bought mommy day presents! haha woo! SO THEN err. went back to her house, then pretty much got kicked out cause her mom x_x eep. but ah wel what can ya do, so then came home, sat down ate more pizza to get fatter and then i was watching Harry Potter 2, then i got bored of that and came and started writing this! yay, i'm cool. but yeah i think i'm gunna go watch again, haha woo! byebye. OHHH and i have laringitis and i sound like a frog! hahaha. i had it like all yesterday ti was NOT funny, but everyone thought so.
Stupid people. hahaha.
current mood: sick
current music: HARRY POTTER! hahha.
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| Wednesday, May 4th, 2005
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6:36 pm
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Well, today, a friend that i've never talked to like ever, told me to d/l a song, and i keep listening to it, i love it now, haha. but yeah, I keep thinking about a guy, I can't stop, i want to say i love him, but i can't. it's amazing that you realize how much you love someone when you loose them, but it's even worse when you find someone even greater that lives 1000 miles away and you think you love him and want to say it but can't. Ick. but yes, I'M MOVING! HAHAHA! [to the suckers that are stuck in Oakbank] Hahahaha. Suckers. but yeah, moving like a block and a half away from the school, and AND. i'll be with all the old peepe, which may or may not be cool but oh well i'll live. I HAVE A BIG ROOM. yaay. and err. the house needs a lot of work, but oh well, we'll make it happen! haha. but i'm depressed, tired, angry, and sad all at the same time, depressed, the guy thing, tired, NO SLEEP :( angry, need sleep, want to move, NOW. and sad, the guy thing and moving, and tired, it all makes me sad. but yeah.
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current mood:  indescribable
current music: Pete yorn - Lose You
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| Monday, May 2nd, 2005
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8:27 pm - I be bored.
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A is for age: 16
B is for booze: vodka
C is for career: Computer Animator
D is for dad's name: Glenn
E is for essential items to bring to a party: Clothes and Booze
F is for favorite song at the moment: Uh..
G is for girlfriend: Hmm.. Carrie
H is for hometown: Winterpeg.
I is for instruments you play: Vocal, guitar, bass, drums, piano, saxamaphone, clarinet, trumpet, trombone, and more.
J is for jam or jelly you like: Strawberry!
K is for kids: No Comment..
L is for living arrangements: Step dad and Mom.
M is for mom's name: Jane
N is for name of your best friend: Ehh.. Carrie and Max
O is for overnight hospital stays: 2 months.
P is for phobias: Bugs x_x
Q is for quote you like: Someimes you have to run away just to see who will follow you.
R is for relationship that lasted longest: Over a year, then lost him completly x_x
S is for sexual position: HAHA. No comment! 0=)
U is for unique trait: I have many?..
V is for vegetable you love: CARROTS and PICKLES
W is for worst trait: Skin and ass.
X is for x-rays you've had: teeth, leg, Rubs.. Whole body actually.
Y is for yummy food you make: Cake, Chilli, Cookies, Brownies, and More.
Z is for zodiac sign: Geminii
FIRSTS ..
First job: Babysitting
First screen name: alicat02@hotmail.com
First funeral: My friend Tyler..
First pet: Bertie, we had to put him asleep :( *Tear
First piercing: Ears
First tattoo: Nothing YETT.
First credit card: Nothing yet *Tear
First kiss: In the rain..
First enemy: Er... I can;t remember..
First favorite musical artist: Haha baskstreet boys. Hahahaha
Last car ride: This morning to schooooool.
Last kiss: 4 months ago =|
Last movie watched: Troy
Last beverage drank: Coke
Last food consumed: Shrimp! Yummm
Last phone call: My grandma x_x
Last time showered: This morning, Yay
Last CD played: The Used. Ha.
Last website visited: Myspace.com
I was bored.
current mood: bored
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8:08 pm - Why?
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You know, everyone always asks the question "Why?" almost 10 times or more when they don't even realize it.. Why? I know you're asking.. it's weird.. I'm always asking the same things day in and day out. "Why am I here" "Why is this happening" Just "Why?" blahh it's actually kinda gay, there's no point in asking "why" in almost anything. but anyway. i'm sitting here, listening to "Brand New" bored outta my face, thinking about someone i can never have.. it's actually pathetic.. I need to get my mind off him, but nothing works, I;ve never met him, but i've been talking to him for almost a year, and somhow it feels like i've known him my entire life, i don't know how, or why, he reminds of someone special in my life the pased away, and then he comes into my life, and i'm listning to slow songs again.. and the last slow song.. everything happens for a reason.. but whats his plan for this? i'm not sure. So i'm asking the question, "Why" and i still don't have an answer, It's just ugh, what to do.... nothing.I do't know how he feels really, or anything. it's annoying that i don't know anything.. I just need an answer.
current mood: lonely
current music: Brand New - Failure By Design
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| Sunday, May 1st, 2005
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12:45 pm
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Well, last night, i had this dude who wanted to meet me come to the park across the street, and that was a scary thing to do, haha, he's soooo weird, 20x weirder then I and that's BAAAAAAAAAAAD. haha. so yeah he left and I was SO happy, weee. He scared me too much. but anyway, I watched The Incredibles yesterday! hahaha I love that movie, they gotta make another one. And At this moment i'm watching Troy, and I hate to say this, but Brad Pitt looks hott, and I don't like him at all. Haha. ORLANDO BLOOM IS A WUSS! :) heh heh. so uhh mhm...
current mood:  dorky
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| Friday, April 29th, 2005
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4:02 pm - Talent Show!
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Haha well! yesterday, was the talent show, and haha, great fun that was, my friends band [Johnny Cash and the Oakskanks] played in it, they got a Mosh pit going, and that was hilarious, I lost my shoe :( But i got it back [yay] Angie sang, Very pretty voiceee, and today was uh, Fashion Disaster day, and wow, it WAS a disaster, it was actually kinda funny what people were wearing I thought, some friends dressed as a prep, so funnay :'). That was my two days. Yay.
current mood:  ecstatic
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| Thursday, April 28th, 2005
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5:50 pm
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Well then, uh, I sold my house a couple weeks back, and owI got a new house [Haven't moved in yet] and yay gorgeous house when it gets cleaned up, and Whee. Right in the area I wanted too, and hmm, what else to say in this, oh yes, I have a 20 year old couple wanting to threesome with me.. it's scary, like really, haha. but oh well, And i'm really happy about a little someone special, heh heh.
current mood: ecstatic
current music: System Of A Down - Sugar
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| Tuesday, April 26th, 2005
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9:35 pm - Wow..
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Well, I finally told the guy i really like, that lives 1000 miles away, how i really feel about him and why, i thought it'd be weird, and i didn't think he'd understand, but wow, the sweetest, sincerest guy you could ever meet, actually understood how i felt, not even knowing what i went through. It's actually amazing, i'm so relieved, but blahh! i dunno, it's still kinda weird, but oh well, i got what I wanted out and it relieved me SO much, yay. haha my excitment for the day! woo!
current mood: relieved
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| Monday, April 25th, 2005
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9:47 pm - ERG
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How the fuck can you tell a guy how you feel about him that remind you SO much about your ex boyfrind that died. And they have the same eyes, smile, words, gestures, but you've NEVER met this guy and most likely never will because he lives 1000 miles away. it's fucking fustrating, and it's driving me insane, I want to tell him so bad, but I can't, they look alike, the act ALIKe, and so much, I have to tell him, but how?! I need to find a way, but it's not working that will, and i don't have the guts to tell him, cause I really like him [even though he's 1000 miles away] but he reminds me of my ex that fucking died! ERG. blah.
current mood:  blah
current music: My Eyes Burn - My Chemical Romance
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6:48 pm - Suicide and Death.
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Ok for starters, I think that suicide is overratted, and when people do it, they only think of themselves, people that do suicide don't know what they can change in a year and be totalyt different, and if you kill yourself over a boyfriend, c'mon! get with it and move on, get another boyfriend. Ugh. I lost a very close person to me from suicide, she was perfectly fine one say, then *BAM* she slit her own throat, no one knows why, just ugh, it's gay, people, think about how many other people you're hurting, not just yourself. So yeah, don't do it, not only for your benifit, but for others around you. AND. also, people, DON'T DRINK AND DRIVE! ahhh! I swear, if i see another person drinking and driving i will pull up beside you and kill you! [not literally of course] but gr. I lost my boyfriend because of drunk driving, he was my first "love" ad i haven't found anyone since that was as good as him, and he died infront of my eyes trying to save my life and yet he died instead when it should've been me. I had to learn from these expierences the hard way, so please, I warn you, don't drink and drive, or so suicide. Drinking is fucking fun, but DON'T DRIVE WHEN DRUNK! blah, ok i'm done venting now.
current mood: guilty
current music: Whiskey Lullaby
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